Hi there,
Did it change your life too? It seriously changed mine. I have known Roy since I was 13 years old. We met through a mutual friend and I am a lucky person to know him. I moved to Oregon in 1994 shortly after the Northridge, California earthquake. Talk about PTSD! Thanks earthquake! Anyway's, Roy and I lost touch for a few years after that, but one day back in 2005 I sat at my computer and began to Google myself (nothing!) and then people that meant a lot to me that I had kind of lost contact with. When I Googled Roy, Lesson's in Love kept coming up. When I launched to page, the essay popped up.
I began to read..... A 91 year old woman... I was mesmorized. I cried, and then cried some more. Everything that had ever happened to me that caused me pain and suffering (literally EVERYTHING!) was lifted from my heartspot. Peace took over where pain once lay. Like what yoga did for my body, Lesson's in Love did for my soul's being! Before this, when I would allow my mind to wander, the anger that stemmed from from the past hurts would return with a vengeance. The anger would manifest into hurt, then pain.... This truly changed my thinking and when the haunting thought's would return periodically, they turned into positive life lesson's.
These days, it is much easier to deal with life when it doesn't want to play nice with me. It is easier to let go of someone when I feel that things just aren't working. It is easier to forgive someone, when they hurt me. Now, don't get me wrong, if you are a mean person, you forever suck in my book. But everything else just flows on by.
I also have a different outlook when I meet people. I always try my best to be a lesson of love and in love. I always try my hardest to be a good person. I care about people and things just a little more. I always give people a chance even when I'm told not to and that they may not be worth my time. That is merely someone else's opinion and I want very much to form my own. I consider everyone my friend and no one my enemy. All of life deserves a chance and I am willing to give it. Appearances are not always as they seem, right? YES!
If I have met you, I like you! You know it to. My minds blog allows me now to forever remember you, and I treasure this. My writing teacher Mary Bartholomy at PCC Sylvania suggested that I blog. I was scared and it took me a long while to finally start it. My cousin is the one who pretty much kicked my butt to actually get it going. It took me 2 days of research and ballsof steele, but I did it.
Today is officially the one month mark of my minds blog. I owe this to everyone who has supported me. Mary, for showing me that I am a writer. My dearest Auntie M, Uncle J and cousin O for loving me unconditionally and showing me what a functional family life really is! My cousin Vernon for kicking my butt... OUCH! but thanks, SUCKA! Steve for giving me my minds blog machine so I could be mobile! Dr. Tommy for fixing my minds blog machine when it came home with a CTD (COMPUTER TRANSMITTED DISEASE!) really Dr. Tommy, because I was once again mobile! THANKS DOC! My Sensai who is still MIA but thought about daily! The guys at Jiffy Lube who showed me that people aren't just out too get a buck but really do tell the truth so my buck stayed with me! My dear, dear mother, for giving birth to me and putting up with me in my teen years when she should have truly thrown me out of the house for my disgusting behavior... I LOVE YOU, MOM!!!! My cat children, Georgia and Smokey for still snuggling and cuddling with me at night, even so my minds blog has cut into there playtime! My neighbors Terry, Tom, and Rusty for being totally awesome neighbors! My best friend Alicia for being my best friend and sister, and my best friend Jennifer for loving me for 25 years and counting unconditionally even when I wasnt such a good frind back.... I LOVE YOU BOTH TRULY AND DEEPLY! My fiends Irnesa and Cher for playing with me when I had no one to play with, and for introducing me to my newest and dearest friend Faisal whom I have a true connection with! THANKS GIRLS! You mean a lot to me! Faisal, for laughing with me when I am laughing at myself, and listening when no one else wants to.... and for joining me on my adventures so I don't have to go alone! And lets not forget being my rescue partner when out on ORLM! (See post from last weekend). Think of all the little men who will not be lost in this world! It's OK guys, we are on our way! Thanks, Faisal! To the people that are reading my minds blog from other countries..... Thank you for reading and I welcome any comments so maybe I can meet you through my minds blog and personally thank you online! Ground Kontrol, for giving me an arcade to hang out again and to work in once in a while, and hopefully much, much more in the near future! Ava coffee shop for being open 24 hours a day and Starbucks for fmaking me a GOLD CARD member so I can save mula when I caffeine up! Hafez Restaurant for being delicious and a great middle eastern restaurant near my house. Mr. Simonds at PCC for showing me that teachers really do care about their students and want them to learn. My newest friends in the Engineering Department at PCC Sylvania, for putting up with me and having the courage to do so since I spend more time with you than anyone else righ now!
If I have forgotten to thank you, it's only because I'm tired right now.... I will remember and I will thank you! Oh, and Mr. Roy Nwaisser, for writing the Lesson's in Love, so that I may forever pass on the love that you created when you wrote this! One person can make a difference as you did, and I follow you happily... If you are reading this, I believe you will make a difference too!
Ciao for now!
Chitra, Portland Persian Blog-a-Billy Chick!
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